I was watching an emotional film on Netflix a few days ago, The kissing booth. It’s the typical story where the good girl is falling in love with the bad boy. Obviously they dated each other and then everything was more like a dream, but unfortunatelly, as everyone knows, in real life this kind of love stories don’t have always a happy end.

I was falling in love with a bad guy. I told him about my feelings for him but as we are living a real life, he didn’t feel anything for me. I’m always thinking why we love the wrong person. I don’t have an answer yet but I read somewhere that we are falling in love with the wrong person cause they are actually the right person.

I miss him so fucking much even though he wasn’t mine. I feel he’s the only thing I’d need now. I hate when I see him around just ignoring me like I wouldn’t exist. It’s so hard…

However, in this story the love failed and vanity won. The fact that there is a cold attitude from him towards me it’s a sign that I’m just wasting my time trying to make him catch feelings for me when I actually deserve better.

This story has no start but it has an END.
I would enjoy the sun to rise up and be together, being on his chest, but this desire is impossible to be fulfilled with him.

Well, my dear… Wish you all the best. You’ve been my first love (not like the love of Noah and Elle) and first love is unforgettable. I loved you yesterday, I miss you today and tomorrow I will remember you with affection.

I’m sure I will always remember you… I hope you’ll find the love you deserve.

Why am I not falling in love with anyone else? ‘Cause if it is not you, it cannot be anyone…

If I don’t feel anything special for someone else and you don’t feel anything special for me I prefer to be alone instead of wasting my time with someone that I feel nothing for. I prefer wasting my time trying to get you closer to me rather than wasting my time with someone I don’t love.

P.S. I miss you so so so much but I promised you that I will never text you again, but if you get a text from me, just for you to know, I’m drunk.
I could’ve feel like a storm in my soul. It’s 23:00 and I love you.